Dedication: To all women who feel hopeless .. here is some hope
Trigger warning: Before reading this post, please be aware that it contains references to rape.
I’ve got a testimony so powerful you won’t understand me at all! A true testament that “blessings in disguise “wasn’t just something someone made up to keep us hopeful . They most definitely endured a trial so difficult there couldn’t have been any light at the end of the tunnel .. until there was light …
People have asked me why I would share something so personal that should be kept private with the world ?
I explain that I was born destined to have 0 privacy . I’m an open book not one thing I want to keep private. I feel very comfortable telling my story and how I over came an encounter with evil that people when people hear my story they cringe when they even think of the possibilities.
I am a survivor and thriver ! I took my power back 30 years ago when I was introduced to a photographer who promised me a big future in modeling : and i saw the stars …
I was 17 years old I left home at 15 due to inappropriate behavior by my grandfather and one of my dad’s friends and I ran from all the mental & physical abuse we were in. I had an 18 your old boyfriend I was living with at the time I was presented the offer .
To make the long story short . I took the offer went to take pictures in what I was told to wear .( a 2 piece bathing suit) got there and it wasn’t long before I was made to undress and you can figure out the rest..in that time I knew i would die there was no way after all he had done he’d leave me alive .but he did .
He let me go with a threat to find me if I told anyone so I didn’t until i found out i was pregnant . 9 months later I delivered a beautiful baby girl who was born from this terrible sin against me . Everyone said I shouldn’t keep her . But I did . She’s now 31 my blessing in disguise. My baby girl … and I couldn’t imagine not having her in my life .
She’s gave me my first grandson is married to a wonderful Christian man . She’s happy and confident even dispite the circumstance. She’s not angry or bitter about anything bc I raised her right and loved her as much as the 3 that came after her .
There is power in the things we tell ourselves we can’t give our power to anyone else ..if I would have done what everyone said I should do than I wouldn’t have ever seen my life in this beautiful view. All glory to God who makes all things beautiful and works all things out for those who pursue him .
Meet my baby girl & see how no matter the mess you can still someday use it to bless others and that is another true blessing .
My daughter and I are very public about this so I’m not invading her privacy . We’ve done some podcast and little things but it’s a message you can’t just keep to yourself testimony means to testify and testify means to serve as evidence or proof of something’s existing or being so I’m doing just that.
I hope this will bless you today !
