Dedication: All of those who battle with mental illness
Freedom is possible!!!
When I say those words I literally mean it’s possible! I recall so many challenging days in my life; when nothing but inward voices, hallucinations, depression, bulimia and panic attacks overwhelmed me. It was times in my life when I felt life was not worth living! The mental prison I had found myself in had became so overwhelming that it was times I couldn’t drag myself out of bed.
I remember being in so much mental torment that sleeping at night was something I only dreamed about doing. Eating was also another thing that was far fetched for me. When I did eat I found myself throwing it all back up because I was dealing with bulimia. I was in my early 20’s trying to raise 3 children and found myself in a place I never imagined I would be. It seemed as if I was in a dream just waiting for someone to wake me up.
Nevertheless, this what I wanted to be a dream had became my daily reality. I have to tell you it was not easy being in this place! On top of it all I was placed on medication that put me in a much worser state. Not being able to take care of my children was probably the one thing I regretted the most being in that state of mind.
But there was something on the inside of me saying that being in that condition was not my destiny. But, I knew in order to be free I had to fight for it! Either I could sit around feel sorry for myself and believe that was my way of life or I could choose to believe I could be set Free!
Well I chose to believe the latter! That it was possible for me to be mentally free and off of all medication. That regardless to what I was told by the Doctors that I didn’t just have to cope nor learn how to manage, but I could have that which seemed to be impossible Freedom!
Well I’m excited to say it’s been 20 years and I stand totally free of schizophrenia, depression, bulimia and panic attacks! I’m not for one second saying it was easy. But, I fought my way to what was said to be impossible. It was not a fight I did alone. I had many people who helped me through my process.
Today I stand as a lover of God, a wife, author of 6 books, teacher, speaker and personal life coach. I didn’t allow my dreary past to stop me! Freedom is truly possible no matter where we find ourselves in life. I made a choice not to allow my past to define me!
Which is something I’m passionate about teaching others. Regardless to what any of us have been through we still have purpose and it awaits all of us that are willing to turn misery and pain to joy and opportunity! We are all truly ordained for greatness. Anything is possible for those who can believe!
