Trigger warning: Before reading this post, please be aware that it contains descriptions of self-harm.
Hi everyone… About me… im 14 old, im bi, im from Lithuania um… i suck at this life… I been cutting my arm. Um… My depression started in 2018… i started cutting my self last with just sharp things… Thought that my inside pain will go away… Um… But, i started to cut every day and could not stop… I had a friend who tried to help me. She didn’t know what else to do… So she told her grandmother… I was in school.. when i heard knock knock at classes doors… deputy school came in… And took me out of my class… Tooked me to her class there was my mok sitting… She told me to take off my hoodie… I did.. she saw my cuts… Took me home.. i thought now im dead… She lied to me and said that we won’t tell anyone about my self harm… She told all family… I got medic from depression… And.. it end it… And.. my mom told me if i.. want medic.. i will need to.. see.. doctor again.. i have.. social.. anxiety… Um… I still cutted my self… And she told me that i will go to hospital if i won’t stop… I never been to hospital… That means.. i have fear to be there… Now i changed alot… I don’t have medic… I don’t cut my self.. anymore.. i don’t talk much… Im a suicidal… I joke about my life.. but if i really could… I will end my life just right now… I fake my smile all day… Cry at night… I started to have sleep problems… I hope someone will read it… And won’t do mistake.. i made… Falled in love in small age… Every minute… I think about self harm.. dream about killing my self… I can’t fight forever… But i wish i will end my pain soon… Its hard to be teen who don’t understand their.. pain… † hope i will do it soon… † thanks for reading.. thats my story…