My mess

Its a tough year and there’s allot i wanna say i just can’t trust anyone around but i wanna let out .. i live with my sister and she got cancer she’s sleeping in the hospital and I don’t know what’s going to happen.. at the same time am studying and working at a restaurant worst thing is that am in love with my boss .. i feel like crying everynight I cant love him cause he got a family and am right here being selfish and mean this is too much for me I can’t stop thinking about him yet i cant love him more i cant leave work beautiful i need it i need him ..