I’m still in progress

Dedication: I would like to dedicate this story to my younger self and future daughter.

Hi everyone. Today I would like to share a story about me. I am a 18 year old woman and I live in Malaysia. So since I was 15, I have struggled with bulimia and anorexia nervosa. For those of you who don’t know what that is, it’s an eating disorder, where you binge and purge. So anyways let’s begin.

When I was 15, I was the Queen Bee of my high school. I got straight As and everyone wanted to be me. Because of that, there is an urge to be perfect. So I started purging after every meal and when I was upset, I would eat uncontrollably. It happened for a year before, my best friend caught me purging in the school toilets. She asked me what was wrong and I told her to not tell my parents. But she betrayed me and told my parents. And for once in my life, my parents cared. They sent me for therapy every week. And I was doing so well, until when I failed one exam when I was 17, it really upset me that I relapsed and went back to therapy. And I’ve had many relapses since then if fact, I’m still in progress.

But I just wanted to let you know that you are all beautiful and don’t make the same mistake I did.