Thank you doesn’t even begin to cover how grateful I am.
As challenging as life can be or get, I have finally come to terms with who I am. Yes, I am different, my brainwave patterns constantly change, but as I mentioned, I have finally come to terms with who I am. I want to actually rephrase the statement. I have met Peace; it entered my soul. I knew that peace was with me, but has not entered the depths of my soul. Now I can proudly say I am at PEACE!
This morning I want to show Gratitude in all ways by a smile or a skip in my walk. I am so grateful I can not even find fancy words to express my gratitude. But one thing I do know is that all my gratitude goes to the one and only King.
Lord Almighty, my Pappa, My Abba-everything I have achieved or lost in my life, I see it all as a blessing, yes, before I might not have seen it that way, but Lord you never gave up on me, because you knew this day would come.
I fought with you Lord, against you in my thoughts as well as my actions. Lord, but you never turned your back on me nor did you go deaf on me. The good papa you are, you went on with the plans you have for my life and you had patience. Lord, you prepared the days and months ahead, while I was being in a faithful season and in doubtful season- most seasons. I was close to you and then I was far away from you but still only you Lord knew the day, month and year as well as hour you would find me broken, and seeking you. Papa you were and you are always ready to catch me when I fall. Times that I am not falling but literally drowning in all kinds of waters, you are always ready to be my life-guard.
Lord Almighty, I’m so grateful for every rejection, such as the person I saw myself growing old with. Thank you for every No in job opportunities, friendships and so many other things I wanted but was not granted. Today as I sit here, I am in awe, Abba if all those things were granted, I would not be here today. I would not have experienced what you have set out for me.
Papa, you brought me to the desert and this is where you won me over. I believe that I was with you and I believe that you had me, but in all honesty, you never had me like you ought to have me. Papa here I am, I surrender!!!
Jesus, my father only you, yes you have given me the courage and with this came strength to face my anxiety, small and big fears. You have sent the right people into my life to walk this path with me. Some stayed for a short while, but I have learnt from them. I believe in my heart that each and every person I cross paths with is your divine plan for my life.
Papa, you know my heart. I am so grateful. All I want to do is show you gratitude. I now know that there is no specific day or time to show gratitude. It should be done daily-in my waking life, in my sleep life and in my daydreaming life at all times I want to show you how thankful I am.
You planned years in advance, you just waited for me to realize that I cannot do life without you Abba. You brought me to the desert and I knew you walked with me. I saw your footprints in the sand -as the saying goes, but Lord, if I never believed in the saying and only used the phrase as quotes, today Papa I literally, testify that the phrase is true today and then. Coming to the desert, my expectations were so different from what they are now. Honestly, I was a mess and was looking for a way out. I wanted things to happen so quickly. I wanted what every happy woman wants, but everything I wanted, I must admit my spirit was not fully aligned with you Abba!!! Yes, I believe that I was going to be blessed and with the full knowledge that it would happen in your time, which I still believe in, but this time my believe in YOU is completely different. I came to the realization and the importance of the Holy Spirit and that you have given us the Holy Spirt as our friend. I am grateful today, because I now know that I am not alone. The Holy Spirit is You too.
In this dry desert you gave me the Holy Spirit, my life has been renewed. I know that and I feel the change even though its small steps as long as its steps towards you Papa!
Almighty Lord, this is the day I heard your voice the loudest, you spoke to me through scripture (You always do. I do hear you especially when my spirit is aligned with you).
“Therefore, I am now going to allure her, I will lead her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her. There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she will respond as in the days her youth, as in the days she came up of Egypt. “In that day”, declares the LORD, “you will call me ‘my husband’, you will no longer call me ‘my master’.
This word I needed on that particular day, it was no coincidence, but very profound. It is in this desert you wanted me to seek you full-heartedly. No physical support from my loved ones, nor close friends. You Lord blessed me during this season of my life, you gave me courage I never knew I had within me. I was blessed by you. I was broken down by you. I finally allowed myself to surrender, not to the human but to my creator, the one that knew me even before I was formed in my mother’s womb. It is here in the Middle East, Bahrain where you Papa wanted to meet me in the most intermate way. Therefore, I am grateful and I know the road forward will present me with many more blessing as well as challenges or storms (I now know not to wish the storms away but ask the Holy Spirt to be with me through the storm. I want to have the faith Simon-Peter had when he set his feet upon the water to walk towards you, and when I take my eyes off you, I know that- like you did for Simon- Peter you will do for me.
I know now that I am the girl in the desert. The place where you wanted to meet me. Not too romantic, my Abba but I would not want it any other way!!!
A Grateful Heart
1 Thessalonians 5:18