Dedication: To my-ex. Do you feel my pain?? Huh?

I am a 24 years old man. I’m here because i feel depressed about my life. It feels like i’m never enough to living my own life. Since i broke up with my ex. My world was falling apart. Now, I,m scared i cannot trust anyone . I feel so empty right now. Everynight, i always talk to my bedroom ceiling.. I hope i can still alive because tbh, im scared that someday i’m gonna take my own life.