Dedication: Yes, I would like to dedicate this story to my 3 handsome sons and my adoptive mother who recently passed away.
Trigger warning: Before reading this post, please be aware that it contains descriptions of childhood sexual molestation and assault.
I am a 29-year-old woman, born in Oakland, California. When I was a baby, around the age of 1/2, My biological mother gave me away to her friend Lupe. I don’t remember much in the early years but have a slight vivid memory of 2/3 years old. Till this day, I have no knowledge of why mothers reason was for giving me up. I learned years later; she may have had a drug problem or alcoholic issues. The years I can remember, were very horrific and may my story maybe very hurtful and explicit for certain audience. From the ages of 2-4, I was molested by my than guardian ” Lupe and her lover” Lupe was 60 years old and her lover was 35-45 years of age. At the time, I used to have a babysitter, she started to notice signs of molestation and got aware quickly. They used to use needles and soap and molest me but my memory is very blurry of those occasions but remember. They would watch porn and enjoy intercourse in my presence and also continue to molest me, they also cut my hair off to ultimately change my identity because the entire situation was illegal. At the age of 4, Lupe got really sick and ended up passing away. I was now in the hands of her lover and her two older sons who also lived in the home. I was molested for months after her passing until my baby sitter decided to take a step further. I was attending Pre-K and I remember these huge police and DCFS workers pulling me out of class. My mother had given me up without knowledge of court orders or paperwork, so they found that to be neglect and abandonment. Another reason of them proceeding with their case. After it all, I was sent to live in foster care, I was sent to the most genuine and loving woman, I’ve ever encountered. She adopted me at the age of 8 years old. She raised me, introduced me to her family and I was welcomed into a somewhat loving family. Growing up was very difficult, as a child, I might’ve not understood what was going on but I knew something wasn’t right and it definitely interfered with my upraising. I want to share my story and shed light on my life.