Three years ago, my skin broke with, in my eyes, severe adult acne. I was devastated to say the least. My self-esteem and self confidence entirely depleted as everyday I looked in the mirror and saw an ugly face. My skin was sore, it was full of pimples and it embarrassed me. At this time in my life I was going through a lot of stress which is probably the reason why my skin broke out, because it was trying to SHOW me I needed a break, I needed to be kind to myself.
Our bodies seem to work in mysterious ways but they are truly upfront with telling us what we need we just have to listen to them. So I was broken, I felt ugly and I was about to give up, until I decided I needed to do this, I had to get through this crisis I saw happening in my life. Also at the time I was slowly but surely finding myself on a path to a more holistic and alternative lifestyle of natural health. I decided I would only use natural methods to heal my skin. Little did I know that this decision would take me on a three year journey of not only healing my skin condition but also healing myself through the inside out.
I shared my story a few months later on social media in hopes that other suffering from something themselves would feel better about their struggles. I decided I needed to open up about my acne because it was consuming my thoughts. I knew if I was able to confront my acne in a public way I would be able to accept myself for who I am and not worrying about hiding anymore. I decided I wouldn’t wear any coverup on my skin, not only because it is not healthy for the skin in the healing process but also because I would be covering myself up from what I was truly experiencing and allow myself to hide from it. When I opened up to my friends and family I got nothing but support back from them and through their love and support I was able to grow and embrace their love and kindness.
It took many trials and tribulations to get to where I am today. My skin is much more clear then it was three years ago, I no longer suffer from low self esteem on a continued basis but do have my days of low self confidence. I found out that my acne became a blessing in disguise. I learned so much about the strength I had inside of me and my ability to love myself no matter the circumstance. What truly healed my skin was not a cream, or a magic potion, although I did have a lot of help from essential oils, what truly healed my acne was my mindset. Whenever I was negative, put myself down and had bad thoughts in my head, my skin would become inflamed, red and my acne would be worse. Whenever I was really happy, excited, experiencing love and kindness my acne would get better! Once I changed the way I was thinking, my acne and my life started to change. ONE YEAR AGO is when I started making that change, I’ve come so far in the last 3.5 years and I still have a lot of growing to do as a person, but it is possible.
I’ve learned that getting to your final goal or destination isn’t really the prize, or the most satisfactory because if you only look towards the future and don’t think about the present you’ll never truly know when you reach your destination. You will never be happy when you reach your “goal” if you do not learn to become happy in ever present moment. I encourage all girls to look for that happiness in their moments right now. Surround yourself with people who lift you up emotionally and physically (because getting giant bear hugs is so nice ;))! Fill your heart and mind with happy and positive thoughts! Do things you LOVE and never forget that your worth is not determined by what is on the outside of you but seriously as cliche as it sounds is so much more dependent on WHO you ARE as a person! People will LOVE you when you LOVE yourself and BE YOURSELF!!!!! Don’t be afraid to be EPIC!!!!
