Hey meet me, I’m a girl born and raised in Sweden and I struggled throughout most of my life. I therefore want to share a little of my story and have my voice heard.
I think it was at the age of 12 my problems started to become more prominent in a way and thats where my health began to downfall. I grew up in a rough household, it was never a place where peace was even an option so that alone took a toll on my mind and body everyday. Followed by that age I was diagnosed with OCD and currently suffer from depression. In result I started question life all the more which even lead to derealization a very scary thing to have to endure alone and it would be a lie to say I don’t still carry it at the back of my mind, but I try not to think of it as much..
Well! What is it like being me? Honestly not easy, I’m usually not open about my life at all to just anybody but overall currently I’m pretty much of a loner and have felt lonely during most of my life. I could sit in a room full of people but I’ll still feel that weird sense of loneliness like I’m not truly ever understood or heard. I’m intensely awkward and don’t really know how to react in social situations with new people so finding friends isn’t an easy task for me as it is for others. That sense of “fitting in” has never occured to me. I don’t fit in anywhere..like at all. I don’t feel worthy nor lovable, it usually feels like I have to constantly prove my worth to people.
I remember the time where my mental health had gotten so bad I could barely get up from bed. So even though I may not be the happiest to this day I am still very proud that I have come this significantly far in life and perhaps it’s that thought that helps me move forward. I also try not to let the depressing thought of “is this is what the rest of my life will look like?” deter me too much and just move on with life.
That was a little about me, thanks. ^^