The experience, clueless, helpless and heartbreaking one at that, I had as a 15 year old led to a strong lifetime belief!!! I will never approach anyone for help of any sorts ever in life, a limiting belief at that! I stuck to this belief for over 3 decades, so much so that I transferred the same to my daughter.
They had a medical shop and we stayed the flat next door. I had my younger brother, mother and myself in our family, as my father worked in a neighboring state. He would come down to us once a month or whenever he managed leave. As he worked in production in factory, he could not manage to be home frequently. My mom was working and managed home, work and children all by herself. We lived in flat accommodation with few families in the building and it was very safe as we shared very cordial relations with everybody.
There was a family of four who run a medical shop, a big one at that, and were friends with our family. One day my mother and my brother both fell very very sick and lay in two beds close to being unconscious, and I haven’t seen my mom fall ill ever, panicked the 15 year old me. The doctor was nearby, called him home, and he gave the prescription. The meds were to given as soon as possible, I was told. So I ran to the neighboring aunty, as I knew this is the time uncle comes home for lunch, has lunch and goes back to his medical shop. I asked her if uncle could get me the meds in the prescription, as both mom and brother are sick and are not able to get up even. Even uncle was standing there as I spoke to her, she bluntly denied to help out saying your uncle has lot of work to do, and can’t get the medicines. The man, that’s the uncle in this case, dint say any thing, nodding to the wife. Till then, I haven’t felt so helpless ever in the 15 years of my existence. I had got a bad taste of life for a moment, but could not waste any time further. Dressed up to go to the medical shop which was quite far away from my locality, as I walked midafternoon, in the brazing sun, with a bitter taste in my heart and tears dropping by, I vowed never to seek help ever in life.
As I aged, I understood one single experience cannot build any belief so deep, that I go to the extent of succumbing to the situations, instead of seeking help. If only had I sought help, things could have been far simpler! Well, I am in the process of erasing this old belief through spirituality and understanding. I’m glad that I could rise beyond and look forward to few more decades of living life bright and healthy.