My name is Lostsoul, I am 23 years old.
My father turned himself into a sage when I was 7 yr old. We used to have good business in MH but we everything got changed when my father got addicted to taking loans and entertaining ppl. We (me,mumma and bhaiya) came to hyd to start a new life. I complted my schooling from govt school with avg marks and yes my eng is not good. always I have to sacrifice all the things which I like, eg – I love dance and particating in skit during my collage days but I couldnt cause I have to take care of my family. I started giving home tutions at age of 15, walking 2 kms from my home. my schedule those days was like morning 5am-8am preparing lunch box and cleaning home. 9-3 clg and 4-5 homework , 6-9 tutions again after cmg home I have to prepare dinner. I couldnt do graduation cause my mum’s leg got fractured and I have to take care of her.
In my life I have choosed many profession – school teacher, tutor, working on showroom, tailor, beautician and where my journey stopped? – working for MNCs.
I am an avg looking girl and I made few pasts.
WHY AM I WRITING IS ?????????
I got married in 2022 and constantly got tortured by my in laws— got hospitalized in mental hospital 3 electirc shocks, marks of blade on my body, locked in me room for weeks without food, tried to burn me alive, drugged and abused me– Idont even remember most of things.
In 2023 I came back to my home and had misscaggrie (was carrying 5 months baby), my in laws and ex blamed me for this and I was broken as bad at that time and decided to take divorce.
My mother suggested me to start working cause I was tried to kill my self many times due to depression.
I joined one ofc there I met a guy, he proposed and I gave transparency abt my life. He accepted me, I thought that he is a nice guy cause he is accepting the girl like me.
He is alcoholic and as the time passed I get attached more and more. I gave him money whenever he asked and started spending salary on him yesss we both used it to stay togther and enjoy. When I was gng rajasthan for divorce he said that he cant live without me and we got engaged on next day.
After coming from RJ we met daily and I took loan to meet him as I wasnt working — now I have 2.5 lacs on loan on my head and I lied to ppl while taking it.
Now these ppl are torturing me to pay them back. Its been 2 month joining in new company and I havent provided even a single penny in my home.
Coming to that guy, he keep on disrespecting me, he takes his ex names in front of me, he will say how he had S#x with them, how many times he had, humilating me infront of his frineds even kicking me – I was dieing inside cause of all these things. This man never helped me phlysically and emotinally.
We got married but he called that unofficial as there was no proof.
Now am realising that he made me fool, he just played with me, am so done with my life.
Cause because of him am at this situation.
AM gonna sell my kidney, cause I cant see my family in trouble as we dont even have money to eat.
That man called me characterless, bitch and many things.
I dont want this life now… am sharing this cause I cant die carring this much of pain.
Instgram id – yesamlostsoul