Don’t let your horrible past keep you from an amazing future!

It all happened a little over a year ago.. that’s when I met him. A smooth, well spoken, motorcycle riding hunk had come into my life and stolen my heart. I had one child and one on the way (neither by him) .. he took us in immediately and started taking care of us. All was good at first. Lots of laughs. Lots of love. But soon, everything changed. It started when he (unknown by me at the time) started going through my phone while I stepped out of the car for a moment. He had stumbled upon one of my old dating apps I hadn’t deleted yet. He blew up! Threatening to leave (I didn’t have a job so he was the one paying the bills) & wrapped his hands around my throat (meanwhile I’m at least 5 months pregnant). I begged for forgiveness and deleted everything I was told to thinking it would make things better, but it didn’t.. things only got worse! Suddenly I was being accused of having relations with people I had barely ever spoken to. Nothing I did was good enough. I was lazy. (Still pregnant). MY kid was “a nightmare”.. the leaving threats got worse. I was afraid. I had no one to turn to because he had isolated me from everyone that cared about me. The verbal and mental abuse continued for months. My daughter was born and everything seemed great. Until my worst fear was realized. He was hurting my children without my knowledge. I was broken. There are not enough words in the world to explain the pain of losing custody of your children because of something you didn’t do and had no knowledge of. It haunts me every single day. I’ve hated him and myself for so long. But not anymore. That hatred got me nowhere. It was just an excuse to not get my life together. I let go of that hurt & I’m now engaged to an amazing man. I’m working everyday to get custody back. I say all this to say, don’t let your horrible past keep you from having an amazing future. Forgive but don’t forget. Let it make you a better person!