Trigger warning: Before reading this post, please be aware that it contains descriptions of childhood sexual assault.
Hello everyone! I don’t know exactly where I should start with this since explaining isn’t exactly my biggest strong suit. When I was five years old I used to play a lot of video games with my uncle who was 12. He used to amaze me, he told me that god told him everything and that he was magic. He did magic tricks and said they were real. Me being five I believed him, so one day he took me by the wrist and led me to his room. There’s no easy way to say this so I’m going to warn you now. He molested me in the doorway. My aunt walked by the both of us. He told me that we were supposed to get married. Me being me couldn’t keep a secret, I told my father that he kissed me, my father asked him if he did. He said no, and I was confused, I told my grandma and she told me to stay away from him. He did something to me again, but I don’t remember what he did to me. I just remember being next to him naked in bed. Today I am 16 and in my family this situation is still not spoken of. I don’t know what to do now. But relationships are hard, I don’t know how to tell people lightly what happened to me. I always feel dirty and I want to be better for the people I care about. What can I do?