After my parent’s divorce, I slowly sank into a trap. The trap of low self esteem. Following the event, my grandma came into the picture and became the caregiver of my sis and I. My grandma always dotes on my sister alot and favouritsm was obvious. Everyone sees it, including my relatives but no one ever stand by me and be my voice. I slowly learned that I am that unworthy and unloved. People around me including my parents grew used to me being less doted on and took it for granted. I eventually perceived how unworthy I am and acted that way. Whether if I am in the society or in my own family, I hardly voice out for myself because I was so used to being taken advantage of. I hate how I could not speak out for myself every time. Now that I am entering the workforce, I realised how much I struggled to voice out for myself and for my clients. Being in the social sector, I learned that I have to learn how to be a voice of my own before being a voice for my clients. I am still in the process of improving myself while being a voice not just for myself but also for my clients. 🙂
Thinking back, I really hope that someone is there to stand up for me, to be a voice for me. It will never happened but remember that nobody deserve to be unloved and nobody is unworthy. We are all loved and standing up for myself is how I show my love to myself. How about you? How are you going to love yourself?