I will survive

As a victim of child physical & mental sex abuse that with a cruel twist that happened with the family home that continued for 12 years until I managed to flee and escape when I was 14 years of age, this included massive failings with the police, social services & the NSPPC & various other departments that are named within these files & consistently show evidence that I was unsafe, poor record keeping, poor information governance & were negligent in the care & safeguarding me as a child- (which I have in over excess of 100 pages of proof that I requested under the freedom of information act that I can send over as a document) I met my son’s dad when I was 18yrs that was also became abusive & I suffered domestic violence through out the relationship that lasted 14 yrs as I was too scared to leave I managed to escape when I finished university – I never managed to finish my education due to my fractured past so after i had my son in 2005 , then I went to night school in 2008 then university and qualified as adult registered nurse in 2013 to be able to provide a better life for my son. Then I met my now husband in 2014 & became a family unit & were very happy untill sadly in January 2016 I was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer ages 31 after having a miscarriage and had to stop working full time to undergo X6 months chemotherapy, radiotherapy, double mastectomy & tested positive for faulty bracca gene 1, therefore I have an 85% of developing another type of cancer & had to have an opherctomy to prevent ovarian cancer so that took away any chance of being able to have any more children & early menopause all aged 31. I am currently now on long term sick as I have developed various other physical health & mental breakdown that has impacted on my life massively & I am still having therapy today & I have never told anyone in in detail about my horrific child hood trauma as I’ve always been frightened still to this day aged 39, a couple of years ago I found out that one of my main abusers has been sent to prison for 18yrs for doing the same to someone else. However having felt death staring at me in the face, I feel now is the time & would like to share my story with you & your readers.