Hope

I was born in Florida, on September 29th, I was adopted at age two, causing trauma, and reactive attachment disorder. I knew I was A female in the wrong body when I was young, I didn’t know how to express it so I stayed silent, I look back and see my mistakes and my regrets but now I see, it is okay to be yourself! I told my dad when I was 7ish that I was in the wrong body, but we never actually continued to talk about it until my past hospitalizations, Around 14. I struggled with self harm and I dealt with lots of trauma but I got through. I believe without my supportive family I couldn’t have gotten through without them. At 14 I was raped by a person a little older than me, It impacted me so much. I cried alone for the longest time with no hope, until finally I went to therapy at a school/therapy boarding school. I met a great therapist, who talked to me and helped me through everything, I still am there today, on my road to recovery; it isn’t easy but I’m doing so well. I never thought I would’ve managed to get this far (back then) but now I see there is hope for all of us, whichever path you choose to recovery, I support you in it. It was a really rough and bumpy ride but now I realize I am stronger and a better person today, I continue to try to do my best and help others in any way I can. I found out a mind blowing idea, that even though I am tested constantly, I have the resources to get through them. I struggled and still struggle with depression, PTSD, Anxiety, Reactive attachment disorder, and gender dysphoria. Despite this I strive to make my life better everyday, and I look forward to the adventures ahead of me, I will keep on going. My family supports me in my transition and it is amazing. I know you will find someone out there, stay strong. Thank you for reading.