Dear people if u are reading this then Im ded or I might be , I’m writing this cause I’m tired of this life especially my mother,if u ready this then i just want u to make sure to spread this note to people and especially parents so they would know how much their words effect their kids
I just wanted u to know the reasons why I died
No respect
no love
no family
no people who love me
I Just have few friends who are the reason I’m alive till now
I have Mother says I should die cause i don’t earn when I’m 17
She says I’m not worthy to stay at home when i say I don’t wanna clean the ceiling fan
She yells at me to throw my stuff out or kick me out of the house cause she just don’t like me
She gives me examples of my dad of how bad I am how trash I am and how i should just leave the house
And she just thinks she has some powers like she is the gods gifted child cause my father isn’t earning good and once he disrespects her he gets more broke but when he showed respect to her he earns a little
She is a entitled bitch
Sometimes I felt a urge to kill her or smash her head untill it was a puddle of blood
My rage was too much to control but I wasent like her
I never wanted to be like her
She used to abuse me physically emotionally and mentally since I was in 2 or 3 grade cause I wasent a good student i didn’t get good grades and i used to get complaint from school and then she used to beat me push me onto walls punch me yank my hairs drag me here and there with my hairs and then kick me out of the house and made me sit out of the house for hours before yelling at me to get back in after sitting there in humiliation for hours
I allways prayed to god to just kill her or give her a untreatable disease so she would suffer every day untill her death and then i would spit at her deady body cause she was the reason i tried to kill my self 2 times
Just
I just want people to treat their kids with love and don’t force them to earn untill they are at the age and why do u want to force them huh u gave birth them so take care of them untill they tell u to stop
And if u don’t have money to take care of them then don’t give birth to kids
Please I’m begging people to read this once
This is me just venting out so I could live more cause I don’t wanna die cause i wanna see her die first cause i wanna spit on her grave once before i die
Sometimes I feel I should just die and it might make easy for her but then I think why i should make it easy for her huh when she made it hell for me to live in this world
The main reason of my death will be a natural death or a sucide
I just want to live for a family I will make in future and I’ll make sure I won’t be like my mother or my father
I’ll make sure I’ll be a good father and I’ll make sure I’ll get a good wife
And I’ll adopt kids more than opting for a blood related kid cause i wanna tell my kids that family is love not blood
I’ll make sure my family is fully happy and I’m happy too
Cause there is nothing like happy wife happy life
If u aren’t happy then it isn’t worth it
Btw I’m still 17 and I have learnt how the world is at a very young age