Surviving hell, in recovery

I was severely traumatized by my family. I am in recovery right now. I was abused through daily chores, cruel and hurtful words said by my mother due to her jealousy and hate towards me in my teenage years and my civil rights being violated. Small things daily like I could not have meal on time, being harshly judged for mistakes. I felt like I could never be who I am because someone always had an issue and some people had it out for me. Therefore, I been living in survival mode for years. The pressure is getting through the daily. I am a victim of trauma and narcissistic abuse.