Dedication: to the girls who go thru the same things that are happening
March 7th was a kind of bad day. Everything was going so well in school until lunch when my ex-boyfriend’s girlfriend was arguing with me about him. When I saw him, I laughed in my head, but in reality, I shook my head and smiled. After the argument, I walked to the 6th period. A few minutes in, I got called into the principal’s office. Mr. B* talked to me about what had to happen.
So I told him I said “It was all over a boy” As we talked he lectured me about if somebody tries to fight walk away or go get an adult he said “You have a choice would you rather get in trouble with the law or do good in your life she the stars in the sky and make better for yourself”
He sent me back to 7th period as the class is having fun and reading a few minutes in i get called to the office again just to get walked to my bus early i sat down in my bus seat and waited patently for everyone else to get on the bus i go to the same school as my cousin well because i live with her i moved to georgia september 8th 2024 shes in 10th grade i lived in pennsylvania with my mom then i moved to georgia to live with my aunt to finish my highschool years down here bc in place called scranton the teachers suck at teaching they didnt real care about about helping us i think it was just for them to get money anyway it was ghetto people would try to start stuff there was lots of drama i wasnt really allowed outside because there was a lot of girls that tried to start stuff and try to fight me i got into a couple fights in middle school im in highschool now 9th grade i was getting into trouble in school got expelled from northeast intermediate first time was because i wanted to fit in and i wanted people to like me thinking about now you dont have to have to be bad and be disrespectful for people to like you i was trying to be somebody who i didnt want to be i just wanted to fit in by hanging around kids who also get in trouble in school with the law my 8th grade year i had got expelled again for saying something stupid they were gonna send me to alternative school but thats when i went online i hated online so bad im surprised i even passed the 8th grade i was failing io never really did it because everytime i would wwake up for it n wait till my mom and sister to go to school and work then asoon as i hear that door close i would fall back asleep again i hated it me and my mom never really got along well its fun foir most parts and we would make jokes about anything thats what i like about her shes like one of those cool moms but like cares a LOT and the people would hate and try to fight me we would look at them and laugh at them she always has my back but sometimes when we argue it makes it seem like she dosent but i just overthink it thats also one of the reason i moved to georgia so get space away from her we call and i go down with her for holidays or on weekends just because, i didnt think this year would be tough i recently lost my my great grandma it was hard for everybody we wasnt ready to let her go it like she was fine we had just seen her next thing we know shes in the hospital the day before we found out about my grandma me and my cousin had fought each other on the bus we got suspended the same day my mom called me crying she had told me that my grandma was dying i started crying to because it was hard to believe i didnt wanna believe it but it was happening.
After i got off the bus with my cousin i was getting ready to go with my friends to study and do work me and my cousin has this friend group all boys one of the boys used to talk to me i stop talkin to him because he was just playing games and hurting me and making me cry he just a undercover hoe and weirdo all in one person his name was blake he was a white my i never thought i would meet a crazy white boy as b* he smoked drank stole alcohol he was my cousin bestfriend they were tight i was getting ready to leave i was gonna do my makeup and leave but i didnt have time and my grandma was kinda rushing me because she had to go get my aunt from the airport she was coming back from scranton my grandma stopped at a gas station i went inside i ask for 25 on pump 1 i was trying to put the card pin in but i forgot it because the cashier was trying to flirt with me then my grandma came and saved the day we walked out together i got dropped of to my friends we got started doing our work it started getting late my grandma told me she was gonna make it back at 12:00 o clock i was gonna stay at my friend A*’s house she was like my bestfriend the first day i had came to knights high she welcomed me the second day we got really close we were silly funny together she understood me shes spanish like me so maybe thats why HA we were sitting at her kitchen table she had ordered pizza she went through her snapchat stories and said look at what b* posted i looked it was the cops and Ambalance outside of our house i started panicking i told a* i had to get home like now there was this boy that i had talked to his name was j*, j* liked me but i had a lot going on so i wasnt ready to be in a relationship with j* just yet i texted j* because he called me but i texted him because i was freaking out about why were there cops at our house i asked j* if he thinks his mom would be okay to take me home because my grandma and aunt were 2hours away i had to get home and i didnt have a ride i dont have a car after j* and his mom were on the way to get me from a*s house i called my friend because he is part of me and my cousins friend group he told me everything i wanted to cry but i was trying not to he told me that my cousin was drunk and high and she tried to kill herself over blakes bestfrined noah and my cousin like each other n* was scared
To make moves and talk to her and make her end up in the ambulance taken to a hospital.
B* wouldnt leave and he was laughing at her act that way it wasnt funny i know how it feels because when i lived in scranton with my mom i was dating this boy named j* he mad me feel like i was nothing when we got into an argument i was crying i hated myself so i took 3 sleeping pills i felt dizzy i was stumbling i passed out then i woke up feeling better again i was sweating and feeling sick me and he was trying to break up with me but i wasnt hearing that bc i really liked him he matched my energy we started dating on christmas eve 2024 we made up he didnt break up with me a couple days after my overdose that nobody knew about but him i snuck him in my mom was gone at work or at least i thought he came over he didnt live that far we were sitting down i hurd the key go into the door i got up n he hid in the kitchen if u walked over near u could definitely see him and know he was in there she seen him she yelled at him he left me and my mom started fighting and pushing each other yellin screaming,crying i had told her she was one of the reasons why i took 3 pills then she 302 me to the cops they took me in the ambulance had me suicide watch where i had to go somewhere to a place really far away to a mental heath facilaty where i lerned not to do it ever again i met teens my age and i hurd there stories way crazier then mine but you cant judge a book by its cover i had got out doing good setting a goal made the goal to get out there i got to go home ever since that i was kinda doing better me and josh had broke up after easter he kept apolgizing to me i forgave him but now i really dont found out he was dating my ex bestfriend that i’ve known for 3 year its whatever im trying to do better anyway its March 8th 2025 and i writing this in saturday detention.
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