Everybody has a wish they long to have all our lives seem to be A muse we can’t explain and the thoughts we’ve ever felt Thoughts of sadness We still struggle to want more

My name is *Shema ryabasinga IDRISSA* , but I go by ( *jay vaino*) on social media. I was born in Rwanda and I was raised in places like Karongi district which is in western province, Huye district that’s in southern province and in Kigali which is the capital city of Rwanda. It all started when I was 4 years old. In 1998 when I lived with my mom and my 1 half- brother and 2 half-sisters that’s when we lived ikarogo( western province) and my dad lived in Kigali because that’s where his 3 wives were but he lived with his first one but that wife couldn’t have kids so when I turned 5 life was hard for my mom because we still lived with her parents so she had to send me to my dad and that was in 1999 so my mom sent me to my dad and I had to live with my stepmother and dad with his other kids which made them my half siblings ( those kids weren’t from his wife that they lived together because she couldn’t have they were from his wives) so we grew up together with those kids we were all 4 boys. In 2001 my dad died because of heart problems so we were left with our stepmother who didn’t like us at all, so after one year when my dad was gone which was in 2002 I started primary school and when it was in 2007 our stepmother decided to send some kids back to their mothers but she sent me to continue school in huye( southern province) at my aunty’s house ( Dad’s sister) but the oldest kid stayed with her so when I arrived in huye life was really hard than I thought, I would wake up at 6am to get grass for the cows that they had and when I was done I would go to school and then I come back to get lunch at 12:00 but I had to go fetch water before I go back to school and then in the afternoon when I come back from school at 4:45pm I would the goats and the pigs outside to get their food so basically I lived that hard life until I was done with primary school in 2009 because I lived there for 3 years then I came back to live with my stepmother but in all those years I haven’t heard anything From my mom and my other half siblings that lived with me in karogi( western province) so in 2010 I started secondary school in a group scolaie MT Kigali until 2013 by then I was growing love for modeling so I went to look into it and they told me I had the talent for it but the education I had was unacceptable because I had to have finished all my education before I get into anything that had to do with modeling.. so I continued my studies at Kigali leading Technical Secondary School( K.L.T.S.S) where I studied *hotel operation and tourism* . I finished my studies( high school) in 2016 and then I started my career in modeling where I participated in all the biggest fashion shows like *Kigali fashion week*, *collective Rwanda week of fashion* , *Refugees matter fashion show* in (Burundi) and *Rwanda culture fashion show*…

That’s the story of my life now I’m 24 years old and I still live with my stepmother and my half brother.

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